Parole was denied!

Last week I received the news that Deborah Soule's parole was denied.  She will go before the parole board again in September of 2019.  Thank you all for standing with me to be Nick's voice!  This time around was harder, not just for me, but my whole family.  The wait was awful.  But I am willing to continue to do this, if it means that monster stays behind bars where she belongs.  It is nothing compared to what she made my son endure. Deborah Soule truly has no remorse.  These last several months have been eye opening for me. I have found support in some unexpected places, and for that I am truly grateful.  There is no final "closure" to be had here.  The pain she has caused in so many lives is immeasurable.  Many people have reached out to me.  Even some who have been incarcerated with Debbie over the years.  They all have said the same thing to me.  That Deborah Soule could care less about what she did to Nick.  She continues to lie and manipulate and tries to act like she has done nothing wrong, like Nick never existed. But he did, and she beat him to death in a fit of jealousy after abusing him for months then sat by and let him suffer for hours.  My family and I will NEVER let him or what she did be forgotten.  EVER.

Thank you all so much for your signatures and letters of support.  Together, we are Nick's voice! 

Such an outpouring of love and support!

When I was young, all I wanted to be when I grew up was a mom.  It took me a long time to even be able to share that with people, because these days we are all supposed to reach for the stars and aspire to be doctors or lawyers.  But me, all I wanted was a family and to be happy.  I was so excited when I learned we were pregnant for Nick, we were young, but we were going to make it.  I never dreamed any of this would happen to my son.  NEVER.  There is such a fine line I have to try and walk, between my past and present.  I stumble and fall, but you all help me get back up again.  You all help make it that much more bearable.  I can not thank you all enough for signing and sharing our petition.  Many of you have reached out to me with such love and kindness.  I really believe it is important to try and find the light, no matter how dark things may seem, well this is my light.  To see that there are so many good people out there, that care for my Nicholas.  We now have over 7,000 signatures, over 7,000 people have
banded together to be Nick's voice, and for that I am truly grateful.

Below is the slide show my sister Faith made for the Parole Board.

Slide Show for the Parole Board   

We are Nick's voice!!

22 years ago, through no choice of my own, I was given a life sentence.  Deborah Soule beat my two year old son Nicholas Miller while he slept.  Hours later, he would die from his injuries.  Denied of his chance to grow and live his life.  Still today, through no choice of my own, I am faced with having to convince a twelve person panel that my son's life was worth having the monster who beat him to death remain in prison.  Every two years I have to face this....and that is if I am lucky.  I have to relive it over and over again for the rest my life.  There is no comfort in that.  It is a broken record set on repeat, over and over again.  I know life isn't fair, but this is cruel.  Where was my right to watch my son grow?  Where was his right to life?  Why do the rights of murderers seem to come first?  To some of you, Nicholas is just a story, but to me, he was my son.  I carried him inside of me for 9 months, I gave birth to him, I fed him, changed him, played with him, I ADORED that boy. Nick was so full of love, always there with a hug and a smile.  He was just starting to talk well and his personality was really starting to shine, but Deborah Soule snuffed that all out.

All I ask is for you to take just a minute and ask yourself how would you feel if you were handed the same fate and faced the same future?  Your innocent child senselessly and brutally beaten while they slept, left to suffer and simply allowed to die.  To this day, she denies responsibility for her actions.  She is full of nothing but manipulation, lies and deceit.

Please take a moment to sign our petition to keep Deborah Soule in prison.  It would also be a great help if  you could write a letter to the NYS parole Board requesting that she be denied parole.  Just click on this link, it only takes a minute of your time. http://www.doccs.ny.gov/letters.html 

Together we can be Nick's voice! 

Please Sign our petition. 

 https://www.change.org/p/deny-parole-for-child-murderer-deborah-soule-din-96g0391?recruiter=17281535&utm_source=share_petition&utm_medium=copylink&utm_campaign=share_petition

Received second parole transcript

Do you want to know who I have the most admiration for?  Parents who can forgive the monsters who have murdered their children.  It is a place I would very much like to get to, but I don't know that I can.  I have waited twenty one years to hear what Deborah Soule had to say about the day she viciously beat my little boy.  Twenty one years!  But still there is NO explaination.  NONE.  Her first time up for parole it was "He was just there"  this time it was nothing but excuses and lies.  LIES.  I am just angered more than ever.  Where can you find solice in lies?  She also tries to play victim, like it was so tramatic for her.  Deborah Soule, you will get yours, if not in this lifetime, then in the next. You seem to have forgotten quite a bit in just the few months between parole hearings, well here is a little refresher for you...FACT....you broke up a family. You cheated with MY husband.  Then you for whatever reason didn't like Nicholas.  It was pure jealousy plain and simple.  You abused him for MONTHS.  You fractured his skull in November, bruised his ear, left many bruises and scratches all over his body.  You tormented him when ever you got the chance.  A TWO YEAR OLD BABY BOY.  Then, after Randy spent the entire day with Nick and I on Friday, January 13, 1995 talking about reuniting our family you couldn't handle it and the minute you were able, the minute you thought no one was watching you viciously and mercilessly beat my son, a two year old baby and watched him suffer with ZERO remorse.  All over a man. Is this a reminder enough for you?  Does it all ring a bell now?  You are not the victim Deborah Soule.  My two year old son is.

Deborah Soule's parole was DENIED AGAIN!!

I am so thankful the NYS Parole Board denied Deborah Soule's parole again.  I know I have said it before, but having to do this twice in one year has been really hard on me and my family.  For now I will enjoy this victory for Nick, but in two years I will be there again fighting that monster's release.  Nick deserves justice and our children need to be kept safe from that monster I am so grateful she is staying behind bars where she belongs.

We received 2645 signatures on our petition on Change.org and many letters to the Parole Board. Every single one helped. I could not have done this alone, Thank you all so much for helping me be Nick's voice.  <3

Daily Messendger News Article Sept 2015

WE HAVE RECEIVED 2566 SIGNATURES AGAINST DEBORAH SOULE'S RELEASE FROM PRISON!!!! THANK YOU ALL, KEEP ON SIGNING!!!

Petition to deny parole for Deborah Soule 

Reliving the Nightmare

Aaron Curtis did a great job writing this article for the Daily Messenger. I hope someday soon NYS passes the law to extend the parole hearings to every five years instead of two.  Victims lives matter too.
Reliving the Nightmare