We are Nick's voice!!

22 years ago, through no choice of my own, I was given a life sentence.  Deborah Soule beat my two year old son Nicholas Miller while he slept.  Hours later, he would die from his injuries.  Denied of his chance to grow and live his life.  Still today, through no choice of my own, I am faced with having to convince a twelve person panel that my son's life was worth having the monster who beat him to death remain in prison.  Every two years I have to face this....and that is if I am lucky.  I have to relive it over and over again for the rest my life.  There is no comfort in that.  It is a broken record set on repeat, over and over again.  I know life isn't fair, but this is cruel.  Where was my right to watch my son grow?  Where was his right to life?  Why do the rights of murderers seem to come first?  To some of you, Nicholas is just a story, but to me, he was my son.  I carried him inside of me for 9 months, I gave birth to him, I fed him, changed him, played with him, I ADORED that boy. Nick was so full of love, always there with a hug and a smile.  He was just starting to talk well and his personality was really starting to shine, but Deborah Soule snuffed that all out.

All I ask is for you to take just a minute and ask yourself how would you feel if you were handed the same fate and faced the same future?  Your innocent child senselessly and brutally beaten while they slept, left to suffer and simply allowed to die.  To this day, she denies responsibility for her actions.  She is full of nothing but manipulation, lies and deceit.

Please take a moment to sign our petition to keep Deborah Soule in prison.  It would also be a great help if  you could write a letter to the NYS parole Board requesting that she be denied parole.  Just click on this link, it only takes a minute of your time. http://www.doccs.ny.gov/letters.html 

Together we can be Nick's voice! 

Please Sign our petition. 

 https://www.change.org/p/deny-parole-for-child-murderer-deborah-soule-din-96g0391?recruiter=17281535&utm_source=share_petition&utm_medium=copylink&utm_campaign=share_petition

Received second parole transcript

Do you want to know who I have the most admiration for?  Parents who can forgive the monsters who have murdered their children.  It is a place I would very much like to get to, but I don't know that I can.  I have waited twenty one years to hear what Deborah Soule had to say about the day she viciously beat my little boy.  Twenty one years!  But still there is NO explaination.  NONE.  Her first time up for parole it was "He was just there"  this time it was nothing but excuses and lies.  LIES.  I am just angered more than ever.  Where can you find solice in lies?  She also tries to play victim, like it was so tramatic for her.  Deborah Soule, you will get yours, if not in this lifetime, then in the next. You seem to have forgotten quite a bit in just the few months between parole hearings, well here is a little refresher for you...FACT....you broke up a family. You cheated with MY husband.  Then you for whatever reason didn't like Nicholas.  It was pure jealousy plain and simple.  You abused him for MONTHS.  You fractured his skull in November, bruised his ear, left many bruises and scratches all over his body.  You tormented him when ever you got the chance.  A TWO YEAR OLD BABY BOY.  Then, after Randy spent the entire day with Nick and I on Friday, January 13, 1995 talking about reuniting our family you couldn't handle it and the minute you were able, the minute you thought no one was watching you viciously and mercilessly beat my son, a two year old baby and watched him suffer with ZERO remorse.  All over a man. Is this a reminder enough for you?  Does it all ring a bell now?  You are not the victim Deborah Soule.  My two year old son is.

Deborah Soule's parole was DENIED AGAIN!!

I am so thankful the NYS Parole Board denied Deborah Soule's parole again.  I know I have said it before, but having to do this twice in one year has been really hard on me and my family.  For now I will enjoy this victory for Nick, but in two years I will be there again fighting that monster's release.  Nick deserves justice and our children need to be kept safe from that monster I am so grateful she is staying behind bars where she belongs.

We received 2645 signatures on our petition on Change.org and many letters to the Parole Board. Every single one helped. I could not have done this alone, Thank you all so much for helping me be Nick's voice.  <3

Daily Messendger News Article Sept 2015

WE HAVE RECEIVED 2566 SIGNATURES AGAINST DEBORAH SOULE'S RELEASE FROM PRISON!!!! THANK YOU ALL, KEEP ON SIGNING!!!

Petition to deny parole for Deborah Soule 

Reliving the Nightmare

Aaron Curtis did a great job writing this article for the Daily Messenger. I hope someday soon NYS passes the law to extend the parole hearings to every five years instead of two.  Victims lives matter too.
Reliving the Nightmare

Parole again in September....

Deborah Soule is up for parole again in September, please take the time to read and sign our petition. One of the things the Parole Board noted when they denied her parole in March was the strong community opposition to her release. Together we can be Nick's voice.
 Click here to sign the petition to keep Deborah Soule in prison

If anyone would like to send a letter to the NYS Board of Parole here is that link:
Letters of Opposition to Parole Board

Every prayer, letter and signature matters.  Thank you all for your kindness and support, it does mean so much to my family and I.

Received the Parole Hearing Transcript yesterday....

I carry Nick with me everyday. His murder is always just below the surface for me.  It doesn't take much to scratch it open.  Sometimes its looking at his pictures, or hearing a song come on the radio.  Every day it is an effort to try and not focus on what happened to him, but rather on the bright and shiny little boy that he was.  I say over and over to myself "Focus on what you do have, Focus on the good."  Today all I can think is " But there is an awful lot you don't have, an awful lot you wont ever have".  I didn't get to watch him grow, I wont ever hold him, or know how it feels to hold my grandchildren. NEVER. No matter what I do, I will never have the one thing I long for.  This was the first time I have ever heard what Deborah Soule had to say about her actions that have so profoundly affected my life.  I can't get Deborah Soule's words out of my head.  "He was just there....."  That is her explanation.  After twenty years, THAT is why.  It just infuriates me. That monster has no concept of what she did to my son.  The most emotion she had at her entire parole hearing was when she said how she "was very moved" that her son-in-law wrote a letter of recommendation. That woman is pure evil, and disgusting. All she ever thinks about is herself.

I think the most truth about what happened that night, lays in what an inmate who was housed with Deborah Soule said.  She stated that Debbie told her (this is documented in the presentence investigation report and a Parole Commissioner quoted it during her hearing) that .Randy and Debbie had a fight.  Randy left.  Nick wouldn't stop crying, so she told him to shut up and go to sleep.  Then she went into the room and kicked and kneed him and then left him to cry himself to sleep.   Reading those words and knowing that is what happened, hurts me so deep I can't even find words to describe. He was beaten, scared, and left alone.  While my son lay slowly dying on the floor, she was having sex in the next room with his father.  It all is just so sick.  If that isn't pure evil, I don't know what is.

Please, click on the link below to write a letter to the Parole Board to keep her in prison where she belongs. She goes up for parole AGAIN in September of 2015.  The fact that my family and I have to do this yet AGAIN is completely unfair.  Twice in one year, because Deborah Soule has rights, is totally ridiculous.